Shooting Star
Posted at 11:46 AM in what I'm feeling, the past

It's for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

- A little too not over you (David Archuleta)

I'm not a pathetic love fool or a hopeless romantic one. But, I know it may sound stupid and whatever I do, at one point to the other-there's this one person who always cross my mind. Ever since I started blogging, he is the only person I usually talked about.

It's been years

and I've gone out to a lot of people, met and did crazy stuff but at the end of the day, I always wish you were the one I'm with-not them.

I know, I did the right decision when I decided to let go and break the bond that link between us.

You said to me that if I let you go, no more communication between us-and that could be our last seeing each other. You're not going to bother me anymore and you will completely shut me off your life.

I thought I was strong enough that night...but I was wrong.

After that night, I always get haunted by your memories. It never failed me to compare you, yearn for you-I always tell myself that I will find someone like you..more better than you.

A struggle for me to get over with.

Paksyet ka. I know we were younger back then-maybe we were fooling around, messing each others life.

But I know, we had it all but we failed to have it last forever.

I miss you and I somehow wish to see you again, just a glimpse from a far.I miss seeing your cute little eyes when I wake up every morning.

If I could have that day, that one another day, maybe will have the gut to tell you I was wrong and I regret for saying 'no' when you popped that serious question.

Someday, I'll gonna find the answers...someday.

A little too not over you | David Archuleta

Campingan Time!
Posted at 02:22 AM

Posted at 09:41 AM

ngayon alam ko na kung bkit nag-walkout dati si fariñas sa impeachment hearing.. yung mga epal kseng utak-taho sila pa mga maboka sa media..

I'M SELLING MY BOOKS (Part 2)
Posted at 04:27 AM

THE CURIOUS INCIDENT OF THE DOG IN THE NIGHT-TIME / Mark Haddon Php200

A SPOT OF BOTHER / Mark Haddon Php100

 

POEMS FOR AMERICA / anthology edited by Carmela Ciuraru Php 150

LITTLEFOOT / Charles Wright Php 120

BLACK ZODIAC / Charles Wright Php 120

DESPERATE RANSOM / Minton Parks Php100

THE MUSEUM OF CLEAR IDEAS / Donald Hall Php100

BEAUTY AND THE BEENE / Laura Jacobs Php 50

 

ELEGY FOR IRIS / John Bayley Php 100

BECOMING MADAME MAO /  Anchee Min Php 120

LIVING BY THE WORD / Alice Walker Php 100

EAGLE POND / Donald Hall Php 100

THE BIOGRAPHER'S TALE / A.S. Byatt Php100

THE ROBBER BRIDE / Margaret Atwood Php200

DOCTOR SAX / Jack Kerouac Php400

mag-message na lang sa akin sa Facebook:

http://www.facebook.com/notes/mark-angeles/im-selling-my-books-part-2/10150520267518775

Posted at 01:18 AM

Umilag kung ayaw matamaan.

Cloud 9
Posted at 12:08 PM in what I'm feeling, workikay

It was Sunday shift, February 29, 2012 when my team leader shook my hand-for an unknown reason.

I've been struggling with my work. I hated solving issues for intermittent sync which sometimes led to no browse issue. Or, authentication which rooted from intermittent sync.

When I was in school days, I really hated numbers- meaning, no Math please! But now? I'm force to understand and check through the loop line test that we do to our client's connection.

What adds more weight to my burden is that, we (I mean like, 75% of our callers are Asian people) get to talk to a lot thick accent from a wide range of mandarin, Japanese, Korean or our crowd favorite, Bahasa Indonesian.

I'm not a racist here or whatever but I'm just stating my opinion here. Besides, this is my blog.

I began to miss having a conversation with American or European people.  I limited myself not to use the American accent coz I signed a contract and I guess, I have to unlearn and sound the neutral one.

Besides, I'm just using a 'handset' all throughout my calls-so, hello stress to the nth level!

Hindi na tama ito. Napaka hirap at wala talaga akong background sa ISP support. I've been from website, hardware and software support and this? Nasusuka na talaga ako! Idagdag mo pa ang sucky stats ko everytime na magpapadala ng email update ang AHT General namin.

Tangina, naiiyak nalang talaga ako sa byahe everytime na umuuwi ako.

Then my mom said, I should give it a shot. I've been through hell and difficult account so, she somewhat believes in me-which I doubted my skills-really.

So what I did, I keep on reading (during idle times-if permitted, hello?) all the emails that was been sent and are sitting in my inbox for couple of months. I started reading manuals about modems, results in LLT (Loop Line Test), what to do when we encounter this and that, everything that I have in my mail.

I began asking questions to my tenured teammates, senior tech and floor support. I never stop asking those stupid question (coz it will take a while for me to fully understood what I got) to help me move on and internalize what I learned something new.

Then, I'm not sure what happened but somehow I get to embrace the account itself-it's process, client procedures and better adaptation with the results every time I run tools in my monitor.

I get to be more conversational with my clients and I somehow feel their frustration. I'm only human that I get irritated to those people who are special that needs more attention and a lot of patience.

A blast from the past, I get to intertwined my bipolar skills and hell yeah, it worked.

I got a couple of commendations from my clients and that really inspired me to do good and be better.

Now, I then get the idea why my team leader shook my hand out of nowhere (after I read an email update from him) and here's the reason why:

I was in cloud 9 for a split of second.

Kaya ko naman pala eh!

Ours | Taylor Swift

Torre Venezia
Posted at 07:08 AM in sweet escape

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Impending Battle
Posted at 11:00 PM

IN few months from now, I will be joining thousands of others in the battlefield. The playing field holds very strict rules of procedure. Technicality is the common enemy. Everyone is soaked with fear of losing their fight. Countless time, effort and money are sacrificed by each aspiring candidate. Like them, I share the same fear. Afterall, we are talking of an estimate of $10,000 just to take the bar exam.

The New York Bar Examination is impending and most likely unstoppable. I already conquered the same battle before but in a different playing field – the Philippine Bar Examination. It was a dreadful fight but passing it was truly beyond price. The first battle may be similar in some aspects but totally different in most of it. I studied four years in a law school in the Philippines and then took six months bar review as preparation for the examination day. Here, I just enrolled two months bar review class for the New York bar exam. Not to mention that it is even an online review class to which I paid around $3,500. So do not tell me not to worry because right now my anxiety level is already high.

But this one posted in my friend’s Facebook timeline gave me mixed emotions. It says, “You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it.” - Margaret Thatcher

I know, I am hoping so badly… But I am pretty sure that I am sweating blood here to prepare for the big day in July.